I love him enough to let him go

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~I love him enough to let him go~


The day he decided to go... I wanted him to stay a little longer, i wanted to say that I still want him. But i couldn't... Neither could I show my love, nor could I save my love.


My heart screamed out loud to beg him to stay, but my conscience was quick enough to silence the scream.

While I saw him walking away with a piece of my heart, I stood there behind and swore to never touch any of the story books. He made me read those, he made me feel those fictional romances in this world of realities.


As i stood there in front of the mirror, my reflection haunted me. The emptiness in my eyes felt nothing less than a monster. I was a mess. He left me like that. It wasn't easy for him to leave, but I never gave him reasons to stay. 


And i stood there, wanting to scream, wanting to cry, wanting to love, wanting to hug, but all i could do was let him go away.


@_arushmita_

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